artemis07

i'm so tired. i just want to break down.

Someone called me. Can't sleep now. It's been raining for 2 days now. I miss the sun.

I'm afraid to return to Manila. I want to, but I'm afraid. Events have left me traumatized. It kills me to loose people; leave things unresolved. I value friendship so much. I miss my Manila friends. I wish I could do something to... but the past is the past. As Lin says, move on; better days ahead.

Lin... and the rest of my US crew. They're terrific. My relationships with them are on a different level. Your faced with a lot of shit here, that things run deep. Two roommates -- Thao and Kare have left; we have a french girl now, and Candice. They seem like great girls. Looking forward to forging new, deeper frienships.

I'm scared. December is coming. Where do I go once I graduate? Manila really scares me.

I'm having so much fun here -- work & play -- the summer's been great! School's began and my bosses asked if I could continue during the fall. My schedule's crazy. Have a lot of house cleaning to do as well.

I wanted to go to LA to visit Mix. I want to go to Chicago and Indie to visit Cams and Dayang too. I'll try to go to Lima early October and visit Jenny. Manila before I graduate, maybe November?

ohhh...

No matter where I am bless me with all your light,
I'm on the train brain vexed connect and the I feel blessed ..

Moonlight enlighten my way at twilight
from the heights of my roof I send praise then poof
I'm looking up at the night
and ask for help to get up and get up and get up and get up and get it right...

My parents are finally proud of me *sniff* *sniff*. They told me I'm so MATURE.

Asian left eye.



Seriously, this has got to stop. I need to get some work done!

So, my eye gets scratched again. And I opted not to go on last night's "boat" trip... nor VA beach today... and I have no choice, can't go out tonight. I actually went to work today (Saturday), had to finish something. Went right after coming from the ER.

Such bad timing. Why is my body malfunctioning? Next week is when the Australia, London, Dubai... PSL leads come in; and when I present my findings.

No one knows about my eye. The people I live with are in Manila. My friends are in VA beach. Other bro is in San Diego. Other ones in San Fran. Rents in Agusan. LOL! :D

You know you've gotten old when you're thinking about work despite your tearful eye and aching ankles (twisted them again).

Good think they deliver gyros. Yum!

I feel for him. It was nice to see the Italians win. But I feel for the modern day Meursualt (of Camus' L'Etanger; the likeness is uncanny!).

But Zidane's a legend! He elevated futbol to national status in France. A poor boy playing in the back streets of Marseilles to one of the most awarded futbol players in the world -- he's a legend! His "head-butting" Cannavaro (mighty cute though!) is by no means right! But Cannavaro did admit to provoking him.

France's team was universal! Aside from the francophones, they had Indian and South American players. I should hope their win would've eased the Francophone's situation in France... a victory for immigrants and underdogs all throughout the world! Ok, so I'm overly romanticizing it.

Oh, the French...

And there were so many Fabios on the Italian team... But we never met any Fabios in Italy... Another conspiracy?

Man, I thought we'd show them -- us Southerners.

Was watching the game yesterday -- rooting for Germany because Wes was rooting for Argentina. I unexpectadly won the bet -- the fries.

But France, France, France? I couldn't imagine Brazil loosing... again! 1998 WC loss reply!

Now its an EU final four. For the finaly two, I want to see France vs. Germany -- complete EU parody! Or Italy vs. Portugal.

But then again, the immigrants really won it for France. Not like in 1998.

Go Germany!

Came back from the Kennedy center. Tonight, during their daily summer free series concerts, for the first time ever they had the National Symphony do renditions from the different ensembles they'll be playing throughout the year. BEAUTIFUL!

Ate around Georgetown. My friends walked back home, so I decided to walk all the way back to my aunt's place in Rosslyn, VA. It was fun. I'm training -- the other day I signed up for the Army 10 mile race (I just want to finish). Told Mom, she wants to join too -- LOL! My company was a sponsor, so I don't have to pay the registration fee (those are really expensive!).

Last Sunday we chose not to bike since it was raining. But Cand and I couldn't stay at home, so when the rain fell to a drizzle, we decided to walk all of NW DC -- we walked 4 hours straight.

The Ordovezas (the couple I stay with during the weekdays) have been great! They're going to Vegas this weekend; whereas Lin's flying down to Georgia Saturday morning and driving to the gulf of Mexico this weekend... but before that, I asked Lin to sleep over here in Rosslyn Friday night so we can check out the scene here.

Saturday afternoon I volunteered at a pet shelter --dogs!!! My friends really want to hang out, we might go swimming after. Kare asked me to sleep over... but my brother's returning from Japan, Geneva or where ever...

Work's been a-piling... But it's all good. "Britney's" mom apparanetly was an Olympic runner. Looks can be so deceiving! Here I thought she was one of those "arte" girls.

WHEN'S CAMS GOING TO INDIE???

I love the arts. Just came from the Royal Ballet's rendition of "Sleeping Beauty" -- it cost a fortune, especially since I got Lin tickets too as a birthday gift (there goes my money for the Indi flight --DIANA, still looking at my holidays. I don't get July 3 off :( ).

Work's been great. I'm in over my head with Environmental and Site Self Assessments; federal and state US regulations as well as international protocols. How much can I don in 9 weeks right? I have my own cubicle with fellow interns Barbie doll and Britney Spears. But seriously, these girls are smart!

I forgot how easy it is to get along with people. Barbie, Britney and I all get along -- mostly when we're eating the company sweets and drinking out of their amazing coffee machine. Surprisingly, my cubicle is rather big -- I have my own laptop, security ids, windows and everything.

Been shuttling about again -- living off a suitcase... rented out my room -- donating the proceeds to Lin hahaha! I like the activity. We're going biking tomorrow.

Sometimes I wonder if my life is really "my life", if everything that happens around me's real.

On the dimly lit streets of Athens, a huge canine approached me, and for a moment I thought it would bite. Apparently it just wanted to make friends. Do I have my defenses up for no reason?

The past few months have been crazy. Upon arriving to DC -- I've lived and continue to divide my week sleeping in three different areas -- my kuya's house in Maryland, my apartment (which I'm trying to sublease again) in DC, and my tita's house in Virginia (a bit closer to work). I have cable now -- at my aunt's house. Hahaha! But I have no time to watch.

As soon as I arrived -- I had to go to the my insurance provider in DC, to my eye doctor in Maryland and the drug testing unit in Virginia. These places were far... I spent 3 hours commuting. But so is life. I love being active and I realize now that I'll have it no other way.

(Speaking of activity, since I left, he's been nothing but active, and now Jevon's gonna join Iron Man Philippines -- I'm really proud of him!)

Saturday was boat day -- Lin and I road on the yatch of her "friend"... all the way down to Alexandria. We went fishing too!

Sunday was jogging day -- Lin and I jogged all the way down to the Potomac from our apartment. We checked out the volleyball courts too. I've never jogged with my glasses nor with blurred vision. I bumped into two people -- hahaha!

Today, started work. Eventful day. I like my co-workes. This one dude -- really, really makes me laugh. I love people who can make me laugh... especially these days.